A few weeks ago, I felt a strong prompting from the Holy Spirit to give up my nightly toast habit. I was like, really, HS? You’re worried about my toast habit?
Months leading up to the breakup with toast, the Holy Spirit was laying other small things on my heart which needed to be broken away, other areas that I needed to pay attention to, and particular focus on some fruits of the spirit I was neglecting.
What I didn’t realize until after the toast breakup and even as recently as today was that God was checking to see if He could trust my obedience. Was I going to follow through on what He was asking me even with something as small as giving up toast, with practicing better self-control, breaking unhealthy ties, being more gentle with myself? Was I ready to be entrusted with more?
Luke 16 tells us the parable of The Unrighteous Steward or the Dishonest Manager. It’s really easy to think of this in terms of money or mammon only, but really we can say it’s about anything which God entrusts to us. Money, responsibilities in the home, spouses, children, jobs, people, ourselves, etc… We are told to steward well anything that God gives us.
10 “One who is faithful in a very little is also faithful in much, and one who is dishonest in a very little is also dishonest in much. 11 If then you have not been faithful in the unrighteous wealth, who will entrust to you the true riches? 12 And if you have not been faithful in that which is another’s, who will give you that which is your own?
So how was I stewarding things He’d entrusted to me? Was I taking good care of the hearts He’d given to me? How was my money management? Where was I with my purpose?
Honestly, not always very well. In some areas I was knockin’ it out of the park, but in other areas I was totally missing the mark. We had a trust that needed to be rebuilt; in other words… I had to climb back onto the altar. I needed to be wrapped into His steadfast love for me – just me and Him for a while.
It’s okay to admit that we just need to crawl into that space with Him, all alone, sometimes. I know it isn’t easy when we’re already juggling way more than we have hours in the day to complete, but if we go back to the principle of tithing, and giving Him our very first, that includes our time. No excuses.
When He knows we can be trusted with the little things, with the hearts of others, the time in our day, the money He provides – we give Him the space to do more through us and with us. His true riches will come to us when we are stewarding well what’s already in our care.
With our good stewardship, He will begin to reveal His gifts for us. We will be trusting Him to provide for us the things that will further the Kingdom and He will trust us to follow through with those gifts. It’s a beautiful manifestation of obedience on our end.
Maybe it’s time to think about your “toast” and see what needs to be eliminated or removed in order to make way for the Holy Spirit to speak into your heart so that God can fulfill His kingdom purposes through you. Maybe you’re already there, and you’re living the stewardship out fully; I want to be like you one day. Until then, I will constantly be evaluating my “toast” and seeing what things need to be tossed aside so that I can move forward in a spirit of trust with the Maker of the entire world.