Want to know what I do really well? I bury, busy, and cram my life with things that will help me to avoid dealing with those things that “I can’t even…”
As I’ve been working through a challenging family time, I was grateful for the busy season at work to pour myself into and… to avoid. When that passed, I got pets. Because pets are good… and they keep people busy. Once that was done, I had to look for the next avoidance technique and I found it… school.
It’s hard because sometimes things that help us avoid are also things that can be beneficial for us. School is a good thing, so are pets, and work… However, pouring yourself into something (or someone) in order to not deal with the issues in the heart – well, that’s a whole other problem. And, honestly, I’m sure I’ve written about this before because it’s something I am *really* good at doing.
I am grateful that I see a little bit of growth on my end, though. I have been committed over the last few weekends to spend some good time thinking through pros and cons, praying about whether this is the right choice, at the right time, and trying to make sure this is actually a beneficial choice or another one of my hiding from reality tactics.
Here are some things that helped me and maybe they’ll help you too!
Proverbs 21:5 The plans of the diligent lead surely to advantage, but everyone who is hasty comes surely to poverty. – is the decision happening too quickly because there is a looming deadline which makes it difficult to make a wise decision?
Proverbs 16:2 All the ways of a man are clean in his own sight, but the Lord weighs the motives. – what are the motives of the choice? Is it being done to avoid something else or someone else?
Proverbs 26:11 Like a dog that returns to its vomit is a fool who repeats his folly. – is this a road traveled already with poor outcomes or something that shows repeated patterns of bad decisions.
Once I decided that school was okay and I felt peace about the decision, it meant that I had to actually jump in and do it. And so… I’ve been accepted and it’s time to start planning for the winter term.
Maybe a future post will be less about making wise decisions and more about how to stop that whole avoidance thing. Another day…
More avoiding? I’ll never tell… 😉